Monday, March 27, 2006

Another fantastic weekend with my love! I drove down there early Saturday morning, and we spent the day together. We brought his dad breakfast, we went shopping, we came home and watched 3 episodes of Alias! Then we went to meet his Daddy for an AA "chip" celebration dinner. I enjoyed the actual being there with BJ and his father part, and the hamburgers were good...but my lungs suffered somewhat. Okay, a lot. But I think it was worth if. 3 out of every five people were smoking, so there was a lot of second hand smoke around...and with all my lung/health issues, it was interesting. I concentrated on the breathing thing, and that way I didn't have a coughing attack or anything of that nature. ANYWAY!

After that, we went on back home and BJ installed he printer disk on his computer, and his (our) laptop. I was invited to spend the night, so yay! More time with BJ. Then we went to Jake's friend Les's house, and I watched the peeps play Halo for awhile. There were seven in all playing, and I was determined to figure out how the game worked. I watched, and I watched...and I failed. Ah, well. I am so NOT video game savvy it's almost laughable. Not almost...it is.

We went back home awhile later, around 12:30am. We went to bed when we got home. The next morning was up for church! We hit the 11 o'clock traditional service, and were joined by Kelly and Benlee. After that, BJ and I headed back home to squeeze in one more episode of Alias before Little Jack's birthday party. We were successful in our mission.

The party was adorable. Elmo was there. Granted, he was seven feet tall...he traumatized all the childred present, except for little Jack. It was so adorable! I met mroe relatives and extended relatives, and relatives through marriage, and family friends. It was a really enjoyable party. BJ and I had to leave early, because he had to work at 4.

I drove on back to Opelika. When Kelly got home we assembled some household furniture, and then headed out to the movie theater to catch the last showing of "She's The Man". I love that movie...might sound jouvenile, but first of all...it's modernized Shakespeare. SECOND...Amanda Bynes is hilarious. She just is. We watched her grow up on a screen, and I just love her! "I'm a bad a** hunky dude!" Got home, talked to BJ and did our scripture reading...*love him*

Last night before I headed out to the movie, BJ called to let me know he and Kris were gonna go bowling and talk for awhile. I was really happy to hear that. Kris may not want to have anything to do with me, but that's not how I feel about him. He's really important to BJ AND to me... but he doesn't believe me, he doesn't trust me...and I'm really sad about that. My dad has told me since I was little that not everyone in this world is going to like you, and you have to learn to deal with that. I just wish I had actually DONE something to make him feel that way. The unfortunate thing, is that that just isn't the case. It drives me crazy, because I can't fix it. I can't MAKE him like me. He would rather know, embrace, and believe in the version of me that he invisions...that person he's portrayed doesn't even exist.

BJ has decided not to keep Kris and I apart, and see each person separately. He told Kris he wants him to accept me, because "Corrie is THE ONE for me, and she's always going to be here..." But again, I live in Opelika. So technically Kris can see BJ anytime, and I probably wouldn't be there. I'm sure he's happy about that. I cherish and encourage Kris and BJ's friendship...I just wish I could be a part of it. Not the villian, or the enemy, or anything like that. I always said I didn't come between Kris and BJ...but I did. I really did. THe only thing is though...I didn't put me in the middle, Kris did. I'm trying to take myself out. But I don't want to be an outsider. ANYWAY! Enough of that. It's always the same inner argument. No one is listening except me.

Which brings us to today. I woke Kelly up at 9 am, and after my morning chat with BJ she and I went for a walk with the doggies. We came home, made some smoothies, and set to work on DVD organization, bathroom stuff...etc etc. Lots of moving things about. I guess I'll write more when I have more to write about!

Later!

C'est moi!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I Had Fun Tonight. I hope you feel better, Baby. Sorority Boys was so funny. I love you with all my heart and soul that is reserved for the ONE God has chosen for me...that's you FYI! I'll see you soon. Enjoy the Hanging Baskets. I love you.

BJ

Corrien said...

Thank you, my love. I am feeling better. Rough night. I'm sorry it happened. I love you so much! Thank you for taking care of me. You did everything right.