*SIGH* -- In case you didn't know, I love BJ. ANYWAY! Yesterday (Friday) was lazy. Kelly was working diligently on her livejournal, and I kinda did a lot of nothing yet again. Around 2 I took a shower and got ready to head to Montgomery. Kelly braided my hair, and then the mail came! We got a package from Mommy. I got a pink stuffed bunny, and Kelly got a white lamb. They're so cute! And my dad FINALLY sent me the memory chip from my camera that he had "somewhere in his desk at work" that had the pics I took from BJ's first trip up to see me last July.

I headed out to Montgomery around 3:40, with a quick stop at the gas station. When I was a little over halfway there, Sunnie called my cell phone. I answered happily, not having heard from my little sister in awhile. She wasn't calling with good news.

Turns out my mom was in a car accident yesterday afternoon. Sunnie was upset because no one was returning her phone calls. A witness of the accident called Sunnie from Mom's cell phone. My mom slowed for a pedestrian, and the car behind her wasn't paying attention. They hit my mom at full speed. Her seat snapped in half and she ended up being thrown to the back seat.

She was taken away in an ambulance and immediately put in a neck brace. She couldn't move. This was all Sunnie knew at that point, and no one was telling her otherwise. So she called everyone she could think of.

Turns out my mom is okay. She even got to go home last night. (Still in a brace.) She's supposed to go on a belated anniversary trip with my dad tomorrow, but I'm not sure if that's really going to happen.

I'm still in Montgomery, and BJ is getting ready to head to work. We had a rather long discussion about a bunch of stuff last night, and didn't go to bed until after 3. I was grateful for the conversation though. Lots of good things came out of it. I think the plague is gonna go away. HOORAY!

So that's about it for now. Keep my mom and her Hawaii trip in your prayers. I love you all! (Especially BJ my love...duh!)

ME

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

my favorite was 12:15am on 12/15...yup.

Yo! So...let's see. Just a quick report. Recently I've been endlessly tormented with horrible dreams, all circling around the same subject matter. They've been driving me absolutely crazy! I am happy to report I think I've banished the dreams.

I've found a new way to deal with the stomach churning subject matter, and it seems to be an unexpected perception of the whole thing. That new angle plus the prayers really have seemed to work. I've been dreaming about BJ instead WITHOUT distractions from happy. That's always pleasant. And if there were any negative things, God has blessed me enough to forget it by the time I wake up.

So I just thought I'd report that I'm no longer attacked at night through my subconscious. I'm okay! But Kelly's not. So let's shift the prayers to her for now. She needs them much more than me.

I love you, big sis.

Yesterday was a happy day! Around 9am, BJ arrived. Kelly had made some glorious glazed orange rolls, so that was breakfast! Kelly and BJ tinkered with the laptops for awhile, whilst I watched the DVD of a favorite of mine, "CAMP". Shortly after that, BJ and I both fell asleep for about an hour, til around noon. Then he and I hit up Little Caesars for a $5 pizza, and then the three of us watched the pilot episode of Dark Angel. BJ has yet to be convinced that it is as good as Kelly and I say it is.

After Dark Angel, we did yet again, a whole lot of nothing. It was around 8pm before we had decided what to do. The rest of the afternoon was spent singing RENT songs (which is never a waste of time) and doing silly dances to cell phone ring tones, and who KNOWS what else!

So that evening, Kelly treated us to Ruby Tuesday...yum yum yum! We all ordered the same thing. The salad bar with a loaded baked potato. Kelly also ordered us some buffalo chicken wontons as an appetizer. If you haven't tried them...you should. For they are yummy. BJ entertained us for awhile with his gay man routine (which he is far too good at) and the waitress spilled lemonade all over my chair while I was in the bathroom. Kelly had to clean it up, because the waitress said 'oops' and walked away and didn't come back.

After that, we came home! BJ and I did our scripture reading for the night, and then he had to go home. It was sad. I have to admit though...I loved it when he started to drive away, then honked his horn at me (while I stood in the door way) and rolled down his window making kiss noises and waving me over. I ran to him for one last kiss before the final goodbye. I am sooooo in love. It's fantastic!

That was pretty much the entire day. Nothing extraordinary, and yet almost perfect. I talked to BJ when he was about halfway home, and hung up when he got there so he could get ready for bed. I fell asleep shortly after that, waking up when he called back to say goodnight.

Today, Kelly and I applied for more jobs. This time in health care facilities, which would be good...because if I fall down almost dead, someone could probably make me not so dead anymore. That would be good. Good health benefits too (duh). We watched little snippets of things, and then I talked to BJ for quite awhile. I'm pretty sure I annoyed the crap out of Kelly, but I just never want to hang up with him...I'm sorry. I can't help it. I'm cherishing the days before we get old and crabby with each other. But if I continue with this streak of blessings, hopefully that will never happen. We'll be annoyingly pathetic forever! WEE!

BJ and I started planning out our summer vacation. (He gets a week paid vacation, and we're probably gonna go to Minnesota to see the family!) Hopefully Kelly will be able to join us. We shall see what happens! BJ and I picked August, so we will have maximum time to save up for the trip. We can hit up Valley Fair and The Mall Of America! BJ and I can finally hit Camp Snoopy...which isn't Camp Snoopy anymore. But it will still be fun to get the wristbands and ride stuff. Wee!

Well, I guess that's about all I have for now. I love you all!

Bye bye for now!

Always,
Corrie

Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

Woot woot!

A lot happens in a day. I'm not as strong and resilient as I thought I was. There have been a lot of lessons learned, and still a lot that I personally have to learn. Attacked by invisible forces in the middle of the night, waking to new questions. Last night, after talking to BJ for a couple hours, it took me awhile to fall asleep. But when I did, it was dreamless for the first time in a long time. I was really happy.

I'm having the hardest time with another issue. Something I used to be proud of. My ability to forgive. Is a good memory a curse? I really think it is. It makes it too hard to forget. Forgiving becomes harder. You can recall every tear, every frown, every ache of desperation. You remember how you felt defeated. You can't forget how alone you felt. Everything stays, nothing goes. Every time you try to "see the light" your memory blasts you with darkness. "Remember when..." is sad now. I have to find another way.


...Dear God...


This pain goes on
Deep inside my heart
Changing all that I knew
This feels so wrong
I'm tired of being angry
But tell me what do I do?
I feel betrayed
And completely overcome
This is the hardest thing I've ever done

I need to find a way to forgive
The way that You've forgiven me
To understand, to know that
Your plan is something
That I don't always see
I need to find a way to forgive
Like You've forgiven me.

We're all afraid
Silenced by the fear
Of the mistakes that were made
I call, I pray
Lord help me to remember
That everybody breaks
Fill me
With Your Spirit and your words
Give me the heart to heal
And not to hurt

I need to find a way to forgive
The way that You've forgiven me
To understand, to know that
Your plan is something
That I don't always see
I need to find a way to forgive
Like You've forgiven me.


AMEN.

"FORGIVE" -REAL LIFE
-rj helton, stephanie lewis, dennis matkosky

Okay! So here's my weekend update. Friday night, BJ drove up to Opelika, and He, myself, Kelly and Benlee partook of a lovely dinner of Chinese food here at the apartment. Then we headed off to the movie theater to see "Bench Warmers". It was hilarious! I really enjoyed it...but I would be lying if I said I didn't feel a little ping of sadness by not experiencing it with Jamie. He saw it with Mom earlier that day, and of course he loved it. He and John Heder could be brothers. Seriously.

After the movie we went to Waffle House just because Kelly and I had never really been to one. I was the entertainment. A guy in a hideous multi-colored shirt tried to eye/smile flirt with me on his way to the bathroom. I thought it was hilarious, while BJ voiced his concerns and made up scenarios on how he would take him down when he emerged from the men's room. (Which had no toilet paper, because I stole it all. Women need it more anyway.) The guy seemed to scurry back to his seat rater quickly after taking far too long in the bathroom. Methinks he needed toilet paper, and went without. He seemed a little...uncomfortable.

After that, we went home. It was bed time. BJ tinkered with his laptop for awhile. He had just gotten a wireless card for it, and was trying to pick up a stolen signal in Kelly's bedroom. BAD! Don't steal the internet! Unless you let me use it...like I am right now! Bwa-ha-ha!

I made up BJ's couch bed, and got ready for bed myself, and finally at around 3am we were both asleep. The next morning, there was a huge thunderstorm. Cody hates storms. He was sitting on my neck, shaking, and panting right in my face. (He has bad breath) BJ woke up a little before 8am, and came into my room. We cuddled for a little while Cody shook and breathed on us. We eventually got up, took showers, and ate some breakfast Benlee had brought for us.

After breakfast we rushed out the door so BJ would make it home in time for work. I went home with him, because I had been invited to his cousin Joy's baby shower which was later that afternoon. So he dropped me off at his house, he changed his clothes, and then he was off to work. We went to the shower shortly after that. Joy got SOOOO much stuff! Her daughter on the way has been named Elizabeth Katherine, but they're going to call her Ella Kate.

After the shower, we went back to the house. I fell asleep (I think) for a while, and Debra went to the grocery store. We ordered pizza for dinner, and BJ got home around 9:30 (I couldn't wait.) And we did a whole lot of nothing until BJ fell asleep.

The next morning was church, as you know from my previous post. Kelly was able to join us! If you want to read about the sermon, check out Kelly's journal. Twas a good one! After church, we hit Taco Bell. Yum. Then we went to Shakespeare. Kelly was in heaven. We spent a lot of time in the theater building. We had fun in the gift shop!

We walked around outside for awhile before heading to Oaktree for some gas, and then back to the house. We watched an episode of Lois and Clark, and shortly after that it was time to head to Frazer for the Easter musical drama. BJ played in the orchestra, but I couldn't see him from where I was sitting. It was very good, and the music was beautiful. If I didn't have a splitting headache, I probably could have enjoyed it even more.

Afterwards, BJ brought us with him to a dinner they had set up for all the participants, and their friends and family. Hamburgers and hotdogs! Yum. BJ looked really good...

We met up at the house after that, and hung out til around 11. Then it was time to drive home! At one point, BJ chased me down the road for one last kiss. Awwww...

Got home, read some of the Bible, talked to BJ and went to sleep. Another great weekend. More later!

The end

Hello! I'm just wasting time while BJ is in the shower getting ready for church. I guess it's become a pretty normal thing to spend weekends here. It's better than it was before. I think everybody enjoys each other more when they don't see each other every day. That's just a universal truth. For instance... sometimes my mom and I clash so badly, things literally break. Now, however, I really really miss her and enjoy talking to her. Now THAT'S something new and exciting.

There's nothing getting in the way of enjoying each other, like how the kitchen needs to be cleaned, or the laundry needs to be done, or she needs me to run a billion errands. Now it's just conversation!

Anyway, I'll probably write a nice little summary of the weekend when I have a little more time. I just thought I'd waste some space talking about how in love BJ and I are...oh, but that's NEVER a waste of space! Especially when it's in MY journal. (Feel free to make yours just as pathetic, BJ. Hahaha)

Anyway! I do, I love him. He's "The sexiest boyfriend in the world". Haha! Didn't think I'd really write that, did ya Fabio? Love you!

Over and out.