I really don't feel like writing. Why? I'm not sure. So I'll be brief. I woke up this morning EARLY to a phone call from one of my mom's medical contacts. Then I watched "The Making of The Color Purple". Then I fell asleep for about an hour. Then I got up, cleaned the house. Then...my mom eager to get some fresh air and get rid of her nausea...demanded I drive her around with the windows down.

I drove to the apple orchard, I drove downtown Stillwater, and then...now what kind of sense does this make...I drove my poor pukey feeling mother to Taco Bell, so she could have a taco and a burrito supreme. Yah, that's what I thought.

After driving my Mom around for a couple hours, I went home and called Nikki. She came and picked me up, so I could help her make some cookies. It was fun. Then she drove me home, and then...then I watched Sister Sister on Disney, then took a shower, then watched Friends, then fell asleep. (For about 20 minutes) Then I got up and made dinner. Then I watched "Without A Trace" Good show...you should watch it.

So that brings me to now. I'm watching That 70's Show...funny funny. And I was writing in my journal, but now I'm done! I have to go back to my conversation with Jessi...discussing whether or not we would enjoy biting Orlando Bloom...peace out. *Pray for the play*

Well! It seems that I may have a job! *woo-hoo*!! On Tuesday, I had an interview at "The Avalon Tea Room". I think it went really well! They said they would start me at more than I asked for...(which means I would get $8/hr) It seemed like I got the job. They kept saying things like "When you work here..." and "Be thinking about ideas for our theme teas"....so it seems pretty gosh darn promising!

After my very good interview, I met Kelly over at Keys. She and I split our favorite, the Keys Chef Salad with ranch dressing. Then I ended up spending the whole rest of the day at my grandma's apartment. She was glad I was there...she was having a pretty hard time.

Nikki called me over at my Grandma's, and I was so excited! I still hadn't talked to her since I was at her house that night. Anyway, she couldn't talk long (as usual) so we made plans for the next day (Today--Wednesday) to go out to lunch. She has early release now, so she's very excited *grins*

After I left my grandma's later that evening, my mom and I decided to watch "The Color Purple". That is the ONLY movie that makes me cry every single time I watch it! It's unbelievable. It is such a good movie. If you haven't seen it...you should. You really should. It is sooooooo good. After the movie, I was standing in my room, pulling my blanket down, in the dark...when my dad walked in. I greeted him, he didn't respond. He held a piece of paper out to me, and I took it. He didn't say anything, just turned and walked away. I thought I was in really big trouble! But...I wasn't.

The piece of paper he handed me, was an e-mail he had recieved from my old music director from Eagle Brook church. I had auditioned for him a few times, but never got a part. (It wasn't because he didn't like me...the drama lady didn't...don't even get me started on her.) ANYWAY, my dad has become pals with this guy, so he used my dad as a connection to me. The e-mail he wrote my dad was basically asking him to ask me if I would be interested in being the lead vocal/drama performer in their Good Friday service at his new church in Stillwater!!!! He had remembered that I was talented, I guess, and sought me out. We've attended that church only once...I was so excited. I get to be on stage again!! I get to perform! It made me very very happy.

This morning, my mom woke me up, to ask me if I was awake yet. *laughs* Is that not completely and totally ridiculous? Then I stayed in my room as long as hmanly possible...watching the rest of my current "to fall asleep to" movie, "The Temptations". Also a very good movie. Bio pics usually are. I cleaned out Harvey's cage, organized things that didn't need organizing...then I went downstairs to face my list of chores. I will not dwell on the mother problems that occurred today. She's insane, I already know that. No need to illustate all the examples...except one. It made me laugh. She kept insisting she never asks me to do anything, that she does way more than I do. Then she said "Who do you think kept the house spotless last with all by herself?" And I looked her right in the eye and said "Not you." And she pointed at me, and all dramatically said "That's a lie. You know it is. God's listening." I tried so hard not to laugh! Does she honestly think this house cleans itself? Because she can't think she does it...unless she really IS insane...I say it casually, but I think it might be true...I won't go into it, or I'll be writing all night! *laughs*

I did my chores, made some homemade chili in the crock pot to be ready in time for dinner, and then I left with Nikki. Shortest lunch ever between best friends! We had no time. We went to Sbarro, to have a food we both discovered the other one loves as well. Baked Ziti! Then she dropped me off at rehearsal....no comment....then I came home. My brother Jamie and I walked up to Super America and bought some pop just for giggles. Then we walked home, and watched Driven: Jennifer Lopez on VH1. Then...*giggles* I watched Dawson's Creek. Then I finished making dinner. Then people ate...then we watched the news as a family, and then Jamie and I let Harvey out and watched him do his gymnastics. And now I'm here! All in all everything is all in all together and pretty gosh darn good. So! Tomorrow, I have no plans until Nikki calls...she and I are going to make cookies for her French teacher, hopefully. And spend some actual TIME together! We need it methinks. Well...good things are going to happen for me soon...I can feel it. Only bad thing? There's a basketball game on instead of That 70's Show. HA!! Well, I'm gonna head on out now. I'll go complain about how stressful the play is becoming in a future entry. I have not the energy now. Later tator! I'm out...peace!

Know what I forgot to mention last night? While I was helping my mom with the picture frames, my Dad was attemtping to hang this painting my parents had bought on their anniversary trip to South Carolina. He hit a stud...or whatever he said, and all of the sudden we heard a HUGE crash. I thought it was coming from the kitchen. I ran in there to see what had happened, and didn't find anything. My dad figured out that since he was pounding in one wall, whatever fell would be on the other side of that wall. Which would make that the entryway bathroom.

My dad could barely open the bathroom door. The huge mirror...beautiful mirror...had fallen and shattered. Guess who got to clean it all up?? That was really un-fun. My dad broke it though, right? So I don't get the seven years bad luck. I better not. I've already had 19!

Today, I woke up and got ready for Holly to stop by and grab the "Cocktails With Mimi" T-shirt templates. Then my mom woke up, and I got chores. Then she left to go to granny's house, and I did my chores. Then I went to theater rehearsal. I got the strangest feeling when I was there. No one acknowledged me like usual unless I went up to them...(Except for Lauryn, who is just the sweetest person ever I love her to death!) And yet everyone had the same look. And I'd say hello, and it seemed like they didn't notice.

One person in the cast that I will always appreciate, it Andrew Backenstoss. No matter what's going on, or how much input Megan gives...he will still ask ME the questions, and treat ME like the director. That really makes me feel good. He will say "Corrie, what do you think?" And suddenly my opinion matters again. He makes me feel visible, and I appreciate that sooooooo incredibly much. And he's such a talented actor! If I continue doing this, I hope he does too :) He's an incredibly talented sophomore, and we're lucky to have him !

I left rehearsal early, still feeling ill. It never ends. Then I went up to my room, and fell asleep. For those of you who know me? You know that doesn't happen.

I slept until seven, so it was about 2 and 1/2 hours. Jamie woke me up, telling me Nikki had called. I called her back right away, and was severely disappointed when I was told she wasn't home. I haven't talked to her since she was there when I had that conversation with Tim. I crave talking to her. I hate feeling like that. She's the only person I can't wait to tell everything to. She's so good at being my friend. She doesn't talk to me endlessly about people I've never heard of without explaining in detail who they are. She always makes sure we're on the same page, so we can be there for each other. She appreciates the things I know no one else will. And I appreciate the things she knows no one else will. And Nikki...Ryan Merriman? I'm there with you so far. The only thing I will forever complain about, is that she's so gosh darn busy! I'm glad she is, because the things she's busy with, are things that make her happy. But we go weeks without talking to each other, and it's so dumb! Because when we finally are able to have a conversation, we have hours of things to tell each other that we haven't been able to tell anyone else! And all too often, has she had to say "I have to go..." Before I can tell her absolutely everything. It's frustrating...but I know that when I DO get to talk to her, she'll be the person I need to respond.

Nikki and I have a pretty remarkable friendship. We've never had a fight or any type of argument. Never. There were only two instances that came close...and it wasn't even close...it was far from bad. The first time was last Valentine's day. Before the school year had started, I had invited Nikki and Lurae to share MY senior locker. I was so proud of it..."Yes, you may share it with me...I am so generous..." Well! My dream all through highschool, was to have my locker decorated for Valentine's day. Last year? It was. I couldn't believe it...I was thrilled when I opened it. It was overflowing with chocolate boxes, candy hearts, teddy bears, cute little notes. They were ALL for Nikki and Lurae. Not even a "Happy Valentine's Day, Corrie..." and it was from who I thought was our mutual friend Matt. It was MY locker! Even if they were closer with him than I was...didn't he realize that it would be completely and totally depressing if MY locker was decorated for other people? He knew it was my locker! That's just...not nice. Anyway, unable to say anything to him, I took it out on Nikki and Lurae. I refused to let them enjoy it. Nikki arrived late, and rushed up to me in the foyer to say Happy Valentine's day. I stormed off, and Nikki's jaw dropped. I yelled something at her about "Go look at MY locker!" and an extremely sarcastic "Happy Valentine's Day!" I avoided them for the rest of the day. By the end of the day, I couldn't stand it. I had written her a long letter of apology, and all was well. She gave me a hug, and said she understood, and felt bad about what had happened. She's amazing. That locker thing still has a twang of hurt though....*sniff*

The second and last thing, was when I had been invited to the movie "On The Line" about a month in advance. I was invited to see it with her, and our casual mutual friend Sheri, Sheri's sister, and her sister's best friend. A couple days before the movie opened, Nikki approached me, and told me that she was asked to uninvite me, stating I wasn't part of the group...that they wanted to keep it their N SYNC crowd...I couldn't believe it. I didn't understand why it would matter who was sitting next to you in a dark theater. Tons of people would be there who weren't part of their *N SYNC group...it seemed so silly to me. I started to cry. Nikki drove me to rehearsal in silence. I cried silently the whole way there to myself, staring out the window. It was a Friday, so I wouldn't see her until Monday. Before the weekend was out, she had called me in tears to apologize. I had stopped being mad at her before I had gotten out of the car that day. She just tried too hard to make everyone happy, and didn't quite know what she was doing...

Those are the only conflicts there have been between she and I. Stupid and trivial, right? Exactly. Barely even conflicts! And we've known each other for a long time. Been friends since we met, practically. That's how I know we'll probably be friends til the end of time. It's just that great, yo! Not many people have a relationship like that. In fact, I can't think of anyone. We've never disagreed on anything, we have all the same views, morals...it's unique. We never judge each other, because it would be like judging ourselves. We're too much alike *laughs*. I can always make her laugh, and she can always make me smile. And I made her a mean collage, man! *grins*

Well, I gotta get going, methinks. I have a job interview tomorrow morning! I hope everything goes well, so my mother will stop the threats! Unfortunately, Sunnie failed her driver's test today, so we both have more training to go through. Well, I shall write more later, to let you know all about tomorrow! Later tator. Peace out.

Dang, I done missed a day. Know why? Sunnie and I are now limited to three hours a week. One hour on Monday, one on Wednesday, and one on Thursday. This is so ridiculous, I can't believe it. WHY am I on right now then? Because I'm on illegally. That's right. I'm such a rebel. So I better make this quick!

Yesterday, I did everyone's chores like usual. Drove to Kowalski's, picked Sunnie up, and then was dropped off at my Grandma's for a really exciting day of...watching an old black and white movie, after I made her dinner. Which I love doing, so it's ok! Then I came home, and watched bits and pieces of movies my dad tried to make my mom and I watch...but it just wasn't happening. They were THAT bad. My poor dad, he has really bad cinematic taste...*laughs*

Today, I was woken up by my dad knocking on my door. He and I had to drive to Big Lake to pick up our old couch, which Holly wants to use for the set of the current play. We did that, it was a trial.Getting it, bringing it back to the theater, locked doors, keys, fireplaces...messy. Anyway!

After that Sunnie and I had to go to my Grandma's to help her unload her groceries. Then we ended up staying there for HOURS because no one would come pick us up!

Then we came home, I watched American Dreams, took a shower...then we ate, and then I helped my mom organize picture frames...then I went online illegally. AHH! Why is my life so boring right now? I swear, it'll get interesting soon.

I have a job interview on Tuesday at the Avalon Tea Room. Wish me luck! And by the way...the play? Cocktails with Mimi? April 24-26. So come see it!! Well, I better be going, I hear parental units afoot. PLEASE e-mail me! I feel so out of it without my nightly conversations with all of you loved ones of mine *whines*. Well, anyhoo...peace out, chat at ya later. E-rokin, now we're talkin!